Defenestrations: I am a writer

jayarrarr:

I am a writer

Last night I wrote a piece detailing, perhaps somewhat too ironically, how I was a shitty writer. In fact, after the onslaught of messages, I had to edit the piece to put scare-quotes around the word “writer”, so that the irony would be readily apparent. Tonight, I’ve seen numerous pieces of writers declaiming writerhood, and proclaiming instead that they are not writers, and so I must throw in my two cents once again. I’m American, we have pennies, and therefore the ability to do that.

If you type or write words of any creative ilk on screen or page or otherwise — you’re a writer. If you conspire to contort these mere 26 letters we have into words and those words into sentences or phrases or verse — you’re a writer. Own it. Be proud of it. If I saw your words tonight, that means I follow your blog. If I follow your blog, even if I’ve never spoken to you, it means I love and respect your work, and I want to read it on a regular basis. Fucking own it. This “I’m not a writer”, “I’m not a poet”, whatever bullshit is tiresome. Yes, if you’ve ever once put pen to page, you’re a writer. If you’ve ever lost focus on the beauty of an errant leaf floating through the air, you’re a poet. Own it.

Let your first step towards some measure of pride be to recognize that you’re proud of what you do. I am. It doesn’t mean you have to scream it on street corners. I have a self-published book (yeah, I just plugged that shit, wouldn’t you?). None of my family knows about it. Most of my friends don’t know about it. Not because I’m not proud of it — because I don’t want their criticism. I know what it’ll be. I don’t want them to knock me down, because they don’t truly know me and probably wouldn’t accept and love my writing.

Sound familiar? None of that means you’re not a writer. Every single person I follow is a writer (with the exception of those few who aren’t, and they know who they are). So please, your words are beautiful, but with all due respect, spend your creative energy on something other than descriptions of how you’re not a writer. It’s clear you are. Accept it. Use your pretty words for something else.

I am a writer. I write words on paper and screen — over 3,000 of them a day. This is what I do. This is what I live, speak, eat, and breathe. I don’t think I’d exist without this. I’m proud to call myself a writer. And you should be too.

jayarrarr, YOU ROCK!!!! Thank you for this Pep Talk. I’ve been practicing saying aloud, “I am a Writer” for a year now. The poetry surprised me, but once I started writing it, it felt so right, that I knew it had been there, waiting, for a long time. Waiting for me to give in to the lure of words on a page, flowing freely from my heart, more so than my head. Yes, I am a Writer. I am learning to say it out loud with a growing confidence, as I can say on paper the things I cannot say as freely with the spoken word. I love writing. ‘Tis true. ~ Janean, a.k.a. Turquoise Tangles
Defenestrations: I am a writer

Spaceous

splintersandmilkshakes:

I wish to store our memories

in a reliquary box,

preserved with exploding stars.

Each time I unlock it,

I shall be transported to an expanse

far beyond this galaxy’s scars.

I shall take your love letters with me

and read them on a moonbeam,

as the Earth waves from a distance.

I can then slide into your arms,

where you can hold me forever,

transcending the time continuum persistence.

 

thewritersaddress:

aged, elderly
couples still
walking hand
in hand
through crisp
autumn leaves
yeah those
who still
possess that
twinkle in
their eyes
that nostalgia
still reigns
in their
laugh –
unbeknownst to
them
they offer
shards of hope
restoring my
faith
that true
love still
exists.

I always smile, and draw hope from the moment, when I see this too.

on the first day of Christmas vacation

my youngest son was awake before 7:00 this morning
even after staying up past 10:00 hanging out in his big brother’s room talking and laughing
way past bedtime
he slept in there last night
in the extra twin bed
with his brother crashed (still) in the top bunk
thankfully he fell back asleep on the couch this morning
how I love a quiet house
and the lack of hurry or need to rush
since school is out until sometime in the new year
even with lots to do today I am enjoying…
the hum of the refrigerator
the click of my phone keyboard
the sound of my youngest son’s soft snores from the family room
the ticking of the clock
the occasional bird call from the other side of the kitchen wall
and the time to savor my coffee
thankful for an early present
and realizing I already need to put more coffee on the grocery list…
why did I even buy decaf?
snow is in the forecast
doubt it comes today
they always work it in at Christmastime always
visitation this evening
for my husband’s grandmother
for now though
a quiet moment
on the first day
of Christmas vacation
much less frazzled and stressed than yesterday
*serene smile and happy sigh*
December 22, 2011 
at 7:40 a.m. CST

P.S. December 21, 2011

Just found out there is no mid week church service tonight and am admittedly relieved. Going to Christmas Eve service Saturday night and back again on Christmas morning. Looking forward to the Found Time at home, or doing errands, this evening. Thankful for that too.

December 21, 2011

Today is the last day of school for my children before Christmas Break begins. 

That means there are 6,000 things to think of and try to do before they are home and out of school before Christmas. 

Life has been a whirlwind lately, of this, that, and the other, and how I wish I had one more day before their school break. 

As it is, I am helping set up the food in 6th grade at 11:40.

My oldest son volunteered us to bring fudge, which my husband and I made together last night before bed. 

At 1:00 I am helping in 3rd grade, having prepped an animal snowflake craft for 27 students a few nights ago. 

In between now (8:50 a.m.) and 11:40 when I am due at school I am going to eat breakfast, get cleaned up, go to Target, the bank, the grocery store, make one or two more stops and then come home before leaving for school between 11:00 and 11:15.

I will be so ready to be HOME at 3:00 when the school day is done. 

My oldest son has a shopping date with his grandparents. 

Then church tonight. 

I have no idea what’s for supper. 

I ruined supper last night, literally pouring it down the drain on accident. 

The colander lid wasn’t locked onto the saucepan and all the spaghetti noodles slid from the pan into the sink and down the garbage disposal too fast to grab any back and serve ‘em. 

So, instead of spaghetti for supper, my youngest son had a plate of reheated pancakes, my oldest son had two hot dogs and a slice of garlic bread, my husband had an apple turnover and glass of milk and I had a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and cheez-its. 

*sigh*

I am thankful for food to eat and Plan B, that saved the day, once again. 

This is why I haven’t been tumblin’ much. 

Life is busy, in a good way, and I haven’t had time to daydream, the source of poetry. 

At least mine. 

I need time to gaze at sunrises and sunsets. 

Time to listen to the clock tick with nothing pressing that needs to be done NOW!

Those quiet moments in the days ahead aren’t likely, but I’ll do the best I can to find them and savor them when they happen. 

There is lots of Energetic Christmas Is Coming Boy Commotion in my future. 

Lookin’ forward to it. 

Merry Christmas to you…just in case I’m not back before December 25, 2011.

Love,

Janean

moody artist types

gray and gloomy
moody broody
I wish I could love you out of it
now I know how you felt
when I was prickly
blue and melancholy
and nothing made it better
nothing except time and space
and the knowledge deep down
that you were there
waiting for me to work through
the emotion
swirling in my artist’s soul
we’re a pair
you and me
two temperamental artists
bound together for all time
I can give you space
I can listen instead of talk
I can be there any way you need me
chicks dig moody artist types
‘tis true
and I love you

A Clarity of Conscious: Patience…

aclarityofconscious:

Patience was a gift taught to me in subtle ways,
Ways so ingeneous that rarely did the teacher have to mention the theme,
Or remind her student of its reward.

The classrooms were unique in their similarity,
Yet each held its own secrets and allure for the teacher.
There were no desks for the…

I knew my husband was A Patient Man. Until he wrote this though, I never knew I had his grandmother to thank for the depth of his patience. She was A Neat Lady. Glad I had the privilege to know her these first 14+ years of our marriage. Grandma’s are special. No doubt about it. ~ Janean
A Clarity of Conscious: Patience…