November 19, 2011

playin’ with fire

I’m playin’ with fire

dancin’ ever closer

stayin’ just out of reach

I’m playin’ with fire

turning back the clock

in my mind and heart

and remembering

I’m playin’ with fire

dredging up memories

best left buried deep

I’m playin’ with fire

hopin’ not to get burned

or burn another

I’m playin’ with fire

red, orange, yellow

bright blue glow

of the flame

as I stare

mesmerized

by what I see

I’m playin’ with fire

the danger attracts

I admit it

my rebellious side

isn’t quashed

yet

I’m playin’ with fire

drawn like a moth

to a flame

with memories

of you

OUCH!

Got too close

for just a moment

while I was

playin’ with fire

© 2011 Turquoise Tangles

November 19, 2011

Hi Janean. Philine here. Thank you so much for the reblog and also for the title. I love that. Sometimes it’s hard though but every now and then I try to remind myself that apart from quenching the thirsty soul of other people, I also need to quench my own. Have a lovely morning! : )

Philine,
Hope I didn’t overstep by adding a title to your words, with my 2¢ added, underneath. Oh, how your suggestion, reminder, prescription for living, spoke to me, as a daughter, sister, friend, wife, mother, teacher, and artist and writer too. My soul is thirsty, though thankfuly not as barren and dry as it once was, just a few short years ago. The order feels all mixed up somedays, on who gets what, when, and I don’t know where to start. It was a lovely morning here, with afternoon just begun and the evening still ahead. Thanks for writing. 🙂
~ Janean 

November 19, 2011

my thirsty soul

novicepen:

You offer overflowing love
to everyone else and
leave nothing for yourself

You hope to save
a lost soul
but you don’t even
know how to save
your own

You give too much
water to the thirsty
and forget about
the thirst in your throat

Now look in the mirror
and see what you’ve become
Remember that the
things you offer to people
you can offer yourself too

novicepen,
THANK YOU MUCH, for this beautiful reminder to feed our own soul. My mother’s advice is, “Put yourself on The List”. Several friends advised, “Boundaries”, when they noticed my thirsty soul, and then encouraged me to pursue the things that water it. Making and teaching art, and writing poetry and prose, is The Best Thirst Quencher In The World, for me. Art and Writing are My Oasis In The Desert.
~ Janean

November 19, 2011

sleep

I slept four hours

hard

thanks to Sandman

and the cat

they both cuddled me

fast asleep

sometime before ten

now it’s the wee hours

of the night

full dark outside

I can hear the clock tick

and the chimes chime

my child’s cough

from up the stairs

I’ll tuck back in

before the sun rises

or midday

for a nap

home feels good

after four nights

in the hospital

we’re together 

again

sleepin’ under

the same roof

as it should be

November 18, 2011

TODAY IS FILLED WITH PRAISES!

 

TODAY IS FILLED WITH PRAISES!

Before the doctors came in on rounds,
it was an especially gorgeous sunrise,
with bands of color across the horizon.
Even more spectacular,
than yesterday’s golden glow.
 

Good news from The Pathology Report.
A clear CT scan. 
Minimal air around the lungs.
Nothing showed up on the x-ray.
Going home. 
 

Staples out today.
Hemoglobin OK.
I am crying tears of Joy. 
Why do we doubt,
when God is so good?
He has this under control.
He’s showing us,
step by step,
I have this. 
Trust Me. 
But we doubt. 
We worry. 
We fret. 
Well, I do. 
Even when he gives us the gift
of a sunrise in vivid hues
to say, “I Am Here”.
Thank you, God. 
It’s your prayers.
All of them. 
Each and every one. 
We are so overwhelmed
with the power of them,
as God keeps moving mountains
from our path. 

He hears them. 
He answers. 
In His time. 
In His way. 

God is good. 
All the time.
How Great Is Our God!
Love and thankfulness
for each of you,
for walking so closely with us
on my husband’s journey
through cancer,
from diagnosis to survivor,
is our prayer.
Friday morning, November 18, 2011
© 2011 Turquoise Tangles