Roses and roast beef.
I’m being extra good to myself this week.
March 16, 2016
roses
permission granted
I said yes to myself today. Yes to the most beautiful, fragrant, lavender roses with red edged tips. Unique and lovely, they eased the unexpected ache inside. I put them in my cart knowing they were not on sale, and more expensive at $10 than the clearance grocery store bouquets I usually give myself permission to buy. I needed them. More than I realized until after I placed them in a clear glass vase upon the solid oak kitchen table. Ever since, these unique, two-tone roses have been filling the room with a pleasant perfume in lieu of the wet dog, teenage boy and other non-rose scents that often linger. I needed them today, this bouquet, more than I knew. Ahhh. Much better.
March 13, 2016
money well spent
Valentine’s Day was a week ago. Today I bought myself a present. Gorgeous clearance roses for $5 and a $10 book.
February 21, 2014
Hope is the first bud on the Peace rosebush on a rainy spring day. ~ Janean
I nearly bought clearance roses today
almost, but not quite
I held them to my face for a moment
almost, but not quite
there were several bouquets waiting
almost, but not quite
had I given in, this was my favorite one
almost, but not quite
even for $4.99 these gorgeous roses, in varied hues stayed behind today
almost, but not quite
resting in my cart, for but a moment
almost, but not quite
it’s been a week now
for this rose bouquet
the blooms are fading
but not our love
which deepens
growing stronger
every day
my sweet husband surprised me with flowers today
for no reason other than, “We haven’t had any flowers for awhile.”
our oldest son helped pick them out
making them even more special
they are in water now
dressing up the edge of the kitchen sink
which is empty of dirty dishes I’ll have you know
it’s been a nice day here
a good day
a family day
filled with a whole lot of normal
we needed that
this was a no chemo week
the calm before the storm
of nausea,
weakness,
fatigue,
and cold sensitivity
hardest on the flower buying man who endures it
not easy for the rest of us either
we hurt when he hurts
we want to make it better
we all just have to go through it though
to get to the other side
the side with no more cancer
for that is the hope
to get it all
for the cancer to never return
for him to be cured
that day will come
I am sure of it
until then we’re living and loving
one day at a time
and today is extra special
because he bought me flowers
and yes, I’m still smiling
Turquoise Tangles 