my heart hurts
I am breathing
I’m also standing
in a sunbeam
in the hallway of windows
just a few steps past
my husband’s hospital room
it’s quiet here
just the sound
of the heater running
that helps too
and stillness
no one is bustling about
I’ll go back…
in just a bit…
I am breathing
January 22, 2013
I smiled quietly this morning
standing in a window lined hallway
seven stories up
savoring the sun shining in
turned toward North
(I guess)
since Chicago skyline
is on the horizon
I’d stepped out of the hospital room
to call my sister
left a message for her
with my voice breaking
and a few tears falling
at the end
January 22, 2013
Loyola hospital
Chicago suburbs
northern Illinois
smiling as I type this
from a hospital cafe
jazz is on the speakers
conversation murmurs
there is ice on the fountain
as seen out the window
on my right
but it’s still pumping water
life
in this moment
January 14, 2013
Loyola
Chicago, IL
pretty pink streaks in the sunrise
the sky is the lightest blue
I do love my kitchen window view
December 13, 2012
I didn’t take long to decide that today was goin’ to be a hang-outside-your-son’s-second-story-bedroom-window-to-take-a-picture-of-the-pink-cloud-sunrise kind of day. *serene smile and happy sigh* Good morning!
~ Janean
November 26, 2012
smilin’ at the tilted half moon
looks like a sideways grin
turning from silver to gold
as darkness deepens
and clouds dance on either side
smilin’ at the tilted half moon
from my second story window
tonight
November 20, 2012
Dear Sad Girl,
Your eyes have lost their sparkle.
Must be those dark circles, detracting and subtracting the twinkle from your eyes, the windows to your creative soul.
Your face is set and sullen.
That grin that once was impish, now set in a line or hangin’ inside down.
Holy hell what a mess.
I know it’s hard now, in this moment, but we’ll get you through this.
Someday soon Faith, Hope and Love will heal the wounds within.
Keep on going.
Day by day abiding.
The loving arms of friends and family will catch you when you fall.
So try to find your smile.
Savor Joy in the quiet colors of the dawn.
Pep talks are FREE and plentiful.
Hugs are often the best medicine.
Love is the easy part.
Start by being gentle with yourself.
Love,
Me
November 17, 2012
quiet pink streaks
fade to peach
in a pale blue gray sky
I watch the rising of the sun
from my kitchen window
the dishes are even done
November 17, 2012
I am in love with the light this fall. This morning’s sky looks like a pastel drawing. And yes, I hung out of my oldest son’s second story window to take this photograph from above the treetops. I took the screen out long ago for moments such as this. Just know, it’s better in person. Changing in brightness, hue and warm orange glow before my very eyes. I’m greeting the sun with a smile on my lips and good morning wishes for you. ~ Janean
October 17, 2012
Our doorbell rings.
(sitting on couch) My youngest son says, “Who is it?”
(standing behind couch) I reply, “I don’t know. I don’t have x-ray vision.”
I could of guessed right though. I walked down the not too long hallway to answer the front door. It’s a neighbor boy, the 6th grade one, wondering if my boys can play. Yes. Yes, they can. Come on in and join the fun. Just leave your shoes on. Go quickly. I have ahold of Blue. Next thing I knew they were switching houses, from ours to his. My house is quiet, for just a little bit. For this I am admittedly thankful. Saturday just keeps getting better. ~ Janean
P.S. I spoke too soon. Let the wild woofing commence. Blue’s at his backyard facing window, and this is how he says, “SQUIRREL!!!!” *sigh* Quiet was nice while it lasted. All 2.3 seconds of it.
October 13, 2012
Turquoise Tangles 